I'm back! Together with fresh memories of this year's VBS (Vacation Bible School) which just ended on Saturday.
So how was it? For starters, it ended abruptly. VERY abruptly and anti-climatically. Just a memory verse competition, prize giving, and the grand finale of... GOODBYE SONG. Then we took down all the decorations, cleaned the church and normalcy resumed.
Just like that.
Seriously?
Yes, seriously.
But I must say, it was awesome while it lasted! Though I'm shy to admit it, I actually had the time of my life worship leading and acting (as bad guy summore) onstage. Add to the fact that I finally managed to memorise all the dance steps to the songs this year, taking away the need for awkward glances at the dancers while leading. Need to pro sikit okay.
One thing VBS has taught me again is to truly enjoy worship. Not just children's worship, but any worship. It's good to show passion and joy in worship, and in life. The Lord delights in it.
*End of VBS recap*
So here we arrive at the finale of The Asylum!
Is anyone actually reading this?
Low self esteem. Haha.
Enjoy!
The Asylum (Part 5: Conclusion)
"Hi, Ling."
Amanda's childlike voice greeted me as I stepped onto the grey cement of Corridor 6B-11. There she stood directly opposite me, in her dowdy ward clothes streaked with strands of loose hair and one slipper missing.
An almost surreal ambience painted the scene. It felt like I had known her all my life, yet was meeting her for the first time.
"Where are they?" I spoke, trying to make myself brave. "Crystal, Bala and Grace."
Her thin lips curved upwards. "They are not important now. They are only props in this story about the both of us."
"You remember me, don't you, Ling?"
You remember me.
We met in Kuala Lumpur.
"Yes, miss?" The nurse came into the room, unaware of what I was going to do to her.
"Can you come over here? I want to show you something." I slowly reached for a pillow from the bed of the child, whom I had conveniently locked in the washroom.
"Mm hmm?"
Before she could react, I quickly overpowered her and pressed the pillow over her face.Caught by surprise, she fell over backwards and knocked her head against the drawer. As she thrashed wildly, desperately, trying to get me off her, I felt glee rushing through my veins. The slut was getting what she deserved.
I have no idea how long she lasted. It could have been 1 minute. 5 minutes. 15 minutes. 1 hour. I don't know. Time had long lost all meaning to me.
She looked so ugly when I removed the pillow. Purple veins all over her face. I hope I never die this way.
Who was that girl?
Don't you remember?
No I don't.
It was you, Ling.
Me? How could it be me? I'm here.
No you're not. I murdered you in Kuala Lumpur. But a part of you never left me. I had been following and watching you for 4 weeks. I knew you so well. We even fell for the same guy. The more I understood you, the more of myself I saw in you. The more I became in love with you. But at the same time, I hated you and I knew I had to murder you. When I killed you, it felt like a part of me died as well.
So when I arrived here, I recreated you in my mind. I am Amanda, the bad girl who killed Ling. I am also Ling, the good girl who Amanda killed. We should never be apart. I need to hate you forever and ever.
But I'm tired, Ling. I really am. I'm so tired of hating and missing and wishing and longing. I just want everything to be over and to be normal again.
But how can I ever be normal again?
Slowly, I climbed up the railing and struck a match, illuminating the small area around the balcony. My eyes darted in tune with the dancing flame, drawing a smile from my lips.
Already I could hear people coming. They knew I had escaped.
Six long storeys down. If I landed right, I would have no problem killing myself.
Time had stopped. Everyone around me was frozen, leaving me free to examine their faces slowly and clearly.
There was Grace, the bubbly and animated girl who always had a story to share. She was the diary that had kept me company all the nights as I scribbled down notes on Ling's schedule and mannerisms.
Crystal, the sweet Barbie-looking darling of the hospital. She was the doll I used to pose as a parent to sneak into Ling's hospital, insisting that I had to pass it to my child though visiting hours were over.
Bala, the big goofy guy who never failed to look huggable. He was, of course, the pillow that I smothered Ling to death with.
And of course Ling.
The one I hated the most.
"Amanda, please." A voice called out, I wasn't sure whose. "Get down now."
Selfish. They all needed me for their own selfish reasons. That was why they didn't want me to die. Nothing else.
Because if I died, they would die as well. Grace, Crystal, Bala and Ling would no longer be living, breathing characters but inanimate objects and a dead girl in Kuala Lumpur.
I was just so tired of all these games. So so so so so tired. I needed a break.
"See you all in hell."
I jumped to my death.
*****
"Amanda Ling Kar Yin, ID 3361." Dr. Rizan ran his finger through the report. "Time of death: 11.42pm, 25th October 2010. Reason of death: Head trauma from fall caused by suicide attempt. Well, another one bites the dust."
"What happened actually, doctor?"
"I treated Amanda for two and a half months." He removed his glasses and sat. "She suffered from a combination of both advanced schizophrenia and dissociative identity disorder, or what you would commonly term split personality."
"Her emotional instability was first triggered by a break-up with a boyfriend, whom she referred to as Thomas. This led to an obsession with Thomas' new girlfriend, Cheah Sze Ling, whom she eventually murdered. But before killing Sze Ling, Amanda actually observed her for weeks. This was when the split personality began."
"As she observed Sze Ling, she associated Sze Ling with all the perceived good qualities that Thomas liked. She wanted to be like Sze Ling, and to be with Thomas just like her. Eventually she made the decision to murder Sze Ling, as a logical consequence of stealing her boyfriend. But emotionally, she was unable to dissociate herself from the consciousness that Sze Ling was a girl she aspired to become."
"This is when she came into our hospital. It took some time for me to identify this section of her history, and the root of all her problems. I believe there were also some other characters involved. She could have been dealing with more than one split personality."
"I thought we were making good progress. Unfortunately, it's gone now. Perhaps all the multiple personalities were too much for her to handle."
His assistant sighed.
"Oh well," Dr. Rizan shrugged. "Sometimes you never know what's going through an insane person's mind."
He got up, strode over to a wooden drawer and unlocked it. Inside lay a inconspicuous light brown notebook, slightly tattered around the edges. He flipped it open, searching for the last written page.
"This was Amanda's final entry."
My name is Cheah Sze Ling, or Ling for short. This is the story of my first-hand encounter with the mysterious circumstances surrounding the suicide of Patient 3361 on the night of 25th October 2010.
THE END.
*clapclap*
ReplyDeleteGood story. Just that the last line a bit potong stim. Other than that, okay.
i think i was kinda sleepy when i wrote that...so yeah.
ReplyDeletebut for the benefit my adoring fans, CHECK OUT MY NEW AND IMPROVED EXTENDED FINALE!
argh, i re-rewrote the ending. not so the psychedelic now.
ReplyDeleteRead your new ending.
ReplyDeleteBut it dawned upon me; i thought ppl suffering from multiple personality disorders dont imagine characters and project them on other objects/people, but it's more of a multiple personalites/characters within that afflicted person?
Granted, I didnt not google/look it up this time, so correct me if i am wrong.
That's why it's also mentioned that she's suffering from schizophrenia as well. So basically she gets hallucinations and creates imaginary friends. Like Bobo and Kiko.
ReplyDeleteWah, I feel so pro standing up for my own story. Wakakak.
ooo...reminds me of fight club...xD
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